Motivation?

last night I pedaled up to my WW meeting and actually lost 4.2 lbs. I wish that I could use that as motivation. Its just that I really don't care how much I lose it is so hard to get out and exercises. Right now I am sitting here trying to talk my self into running tonight which wouldn't happen for another five and a half hours. I hope it gets easier. How long does it take to make a habit? People always say that if you can make yourself do it for two weeks straight it starts to be routine. I don't see that happening. In two weeks I expect to still have to talk myself into going. I just don't know if I will ever find running fun. I like weights but have yet to lift one. Maybe if I had a workout partner I would look forward to working out with some one. I guess this is what athletes call low mental toughness. I am going to go but just don't like to think about it.

Work is slow as usual and I even found extra stuff for me to do. Maybe I work to fast. I mean I watch people make their work drag on all day I can't do it that way. Something inside me always make me want to hurry and get everything done so that nothing gets left for tomorrow. It would bother me to do what all these other people do. Really how could you type up something take a five minute drink of a soda and talk for a little while, then get up and grab some papers? It all seems so boring why not get it all done and surf the Internet. Oh that's right the work place watches our Internet usage. That is all so lame. If I get done I think I deserve a little Internet time. not my fault the salesman aren't getting rents. Any way work sucks I wish I was rich or doing something that made a difference. Come on police academy. One year and counting.

Peace

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