Adult Hood

This week My sister in law's, husbands, cousin was in town. He is our age and is into partying like I thought I was. They want to go out at night and hang out and have fun and i just cant hang. I realized how old I feel. I can't believe how much having a "real" job affects how much fun I am. I really want to go but know if I go I will be so tired the next day. Waaawaaa. I know I am a little baby. I wish I had my wife's job she doesn't have to be to work until nine and gets off the same time I do. Lucky. That's what a college degree does for you though.

On a side note though I have noticed that since I have moved to Texas I have become more and more confrontational. I don't know if it is because my role has changed since I got married or I just got tired of being walked on like I used to. I am not sure its a change for the better. Its one thing to stand up for yourself and entirely different to be a bully or pushy or what ever negatives that could come from this attitude. I hope that my friends or wife will say something if I step over that make believe boundary. If you are scared to say something maybe bring Brad to the conversation. Hes a friend that's big and scary. (Jk) Hes not to scary but I definitely would think twice before getting mad at him. Mostly because of his man beard. For real that thing could take me in a one on one fight. Like sitting there looking at it I feel it sizing me up. Jk I love brad in a non-romantic way hes my boy.

And lastly I LOVE my wife. Just felt it need said today.

UnManic Monday

Hello again. Well we had an eventful weekend. It was a lot of fun and hanging out with friends. The bar-b-Que was good, and the friend time was even better.I think I am going to in the future though buy a smoker that is mounted on a trailer so that we can have whole church function's. I was driving to see a movie with my friends and saw a smoker that would be prefect. I feel bad when we have a bra-b-Que and all my friends are there then I go to church and see all the other people that could have come. Its in those moments I want a bigger house just to have all those people over. So I think when we get in our new building I will have to buy a big smoker and then we can cook at the church, or at the house and transport the meat to the church or park. I really just want a big man smoker that would be awesome.

Work sucks again. I shouldn't complain though cause we are a little busier which is good, we are just missing more drivers than before. I found out today and by found out I mean eaves dropped some info. About how our company is not making enough money due to the economy. Luckily my division is making more money than we did last year so the cuts wont come from here. This economy needs a boost. I guess this just shows that no one wanted to rent equipment with their stimulus check. LOL.

Oh! My wife got this fine hair cut this weekend. I really like it. Shes a super hottie and the hair cut bumps it up even more. Though it is very similar to like four people we hang out with. Ok well talk to you later.

Issues

Today I get to work expecting everything to be a little better, but no. Everything hit the fan this morning. I show up to no driver again. the machines I need to have going out are all wrong, and one got given away the day before I need it. Luckily most of this fell on my manager so they finally get to see what I have to deal with on a regular basis. Suck IT!!!! I wasn't liking and finally I have been justified. so while it was hectic it was all worth it.

Last night I stayed out way to late. 10:30pm, that's right I know that early but not for me. That's way past my bed time. We were "forking" our friends house. "Forking" is the act of covering a yard with as many plastic forks as possible with out getting caught. They just moved in up the way from us, "over yonder" for all the Texans that may read this. It was so much fun and couldn't have worked any better. As we rolled up to their house, they were in the drive way so we had to incognito around the block. We crept around the side just in time to see them leave. It was jail break. Then with a multitude of forks being stabbed into the ground with blazing speed. 600 fork in two minutes. I don't think Spartans could do it faster. It was fun and I know that every one had a fun time. (even the clean up was a good time) Tonight I am going to rest it up big time.

Today a thought jumped in my head and I realized that I need to work on something. I have always said how much I dislike hypocrites. Ask my wife it is quite frequently that I say I don't like them. Today I was thinking about a conversation I've had with my pastor aka friend Levi and a few select others that I think wanted to listen, now everyone can read it. I have talked about how I don't like when the "church" not our church but the Church as a whole often says we need to save people but then they avoid certain groups of people. To what avail I guess would be my next question. I mean I think that everyone deserves Gods love and we are not the people to judge. I found myself today thinking about how i don't think I could hang out with certain people cause they make me uncomfortable or "rub me the wrong way". This is where the attitude of I want to save people just not those people I think starts. So I want to work on finding the good or something I can relate to in everyone. I don't want to miss getting to know someone because they aren't my normal. To gain anything in life you need to get out of your comfort zone. Wish me luck.

Another Long Day

When I was younger I remember riding my bike every where. For me to ride ten fifteen miles wasn't that strange. I rode to school, to friends houses, every where. How I wish that I never got a car, .... sometimes. Being healthy was just a side effect of transportation. Now that gas is a million dollars a gallon I have tried to start riding my bike to and from the bus stop. Talking myself into it has been one of the most embarrassing things ever. I ask my self a lot how I got this big and looking back every morning to how hard it was for me to get out of bed to ride my bike tells me exactly how I got this big, laziness. I am turning over a new leaf or at least telling myself for the hundredth time that I am sick of being unhealthy. This morning I rolled out of bed to get on my bike at five in the morning. that may not seem early to a lot of folks but for me this sucks big time. I didn't actually make it to the bike until 5:30 and then had to load it in the truck to make my bus. I am going to look at this as a baby step toward getting healthy and saving money instead of a failure. Tomorrow, that's a great word. There is always a tomorrow. Its so easy for me any way to just say that and let every thing "work its self out". In the words of every motivational speaker I could imagine, for me I wont let it be tomorrow. Today is when my Life style is changing. I am going to need every ones help. Please!! I want, like my wife say all the time, "people to slap food out of my hands". I like to think I can do it by myself cause I am a man and have no weakness, but the truth is that if you put a sweet and cheesy cloche in front of my face I am going to eat it. No if ands or buts about it, that thing is gone. Man I love food and that is a huge problem. Maybe I should pay my wife to take me on walks, or put an add in the paper for a work out buddy. Not that this will fix every thing but it would make working out easier. When my friend Levi calls to go play Disc golf I would never say no. It is fun and for me any way good exercise, I need to make every thing fun that will help me get in shape. Why can I say yes every time to that, but say no to my poor dog that wants nothing more than work out with me? Kobe has to much energy, it's not really a work out when I take him. I make him pull me on roller blades. hes a beast, I love that dog.

On a different note work is good just really slow. For the second week in a row my Haul truck is broken. Today we put up metal shelving for the parts department. Not making this company a dime but keeping me busy. Kinda. I managed to find time in my busy day to write on here. Looking forward to the end of the day. and my short bike ride home. See you tomorrow. Who am I saying good bye too? My blog? ok good night blog. :)

First one

Well today I was reading my friends blogs and figured that if they can do it, I can to. I started thinking what would I blog about. Would people want to know and read about my day? if so why, what do I have to offer? No really influential things would come from me. I mean I am kind of a wussy but I think I put up a good front. I mean do my friends really know me? What kind of person do I present myself as? Would they like the person my wife has to deal with all the time? How true is that, the only person that knows me is my wife. Is that what life is, a big show that my wife and I get to share? I guess still after all these years who I am is still clouded to me. How do you learn who you are? I know what I would like to be. How do I make myself what I want? Do I give my wife the stick and let her mold me into what I need to be? That's not fair, easier but not fair. Can any one give me an answer? I mean God knows right? Well there is a question, what does God want me to be? I have so many questions and no answers.
Today has been slow at work and I have had a lot of time to sit here and reflect on the sermons that a couple of friends of mine have given in a series titled "The Upside Down Ways of God". I really think that these new friends of my families are really helping me in ways I never thought possible. I feel that I have a bunch of good role models that I never had before. When I say role models I mean that in a very powerful way. I have had some conversations with my wife about how marriage and life is supposed to go. What is the norm if you will. I had no one to look at growing up and was completely clueless of what it would be like. I mean I tried to fake it but ended up making some huge mistakes. Luckily my beautiful and very sweet wife stuck with me and we've had to rely on God to make our marriage stronger than ever. To see all these kind and intelligent people interacting has given me something to kinda look up too. Its not like these couples are perfect or have been married a lot longer than me its just nice to see that I am not the only one that has these issues and that they are a great help and knowledge source.

Any way kinda got on a rant there. I will save some more of my internal issues for tomorrow. Peace